9/11/2018 0 Comments The Proust QuestionnaireIf I do not address the character flaws i have they will dictate my life. For years, money was the deodorant for the stench of my soul. This blog you are about to embark on will take you on a roller coaster of life. There will be answers to questions that point to a horrible human being. However, there will be answers that show the beauty of a changed soul.
My idea of perfect happiness is Sunday dinner. Meaning I woke up Sunday morning down south to birds and the beautiful sunshine. I ate an excellent breakfast, and as I was getting ready for church, I was listening to either a piano playing or the Sports Reporters. After church, I came home and watched football in a calm atmosphere with the sun shining in the living room with sliding doors. Meanwhile, I can smell Sunday dinner being cooked by my wife. My kids are reading in their room or outside doing something productive. My wife while cooking is doing some work either in-house or reading. I then eat Sunday dinner only then to end the night outside on the porch reading a newspaper. The trait I deplore most in others are people who are not emphatic. The reality is we all at one point in our life will deal with hardships. The old quote says, “You either going through something or you are coming out of it.” The other quote is, “You do not get stronger by the weights you lift, you get stronger by what you overcome.” Everyone's pain threshold mentally, spiritually, and emotionally is different so do not have empathy for another human being is ridiculous. There is a reasonably sure people are made to be navy seals, and others are made to be daycare workers. The person living who I admire the most is my aunt with Polio. I watch her raise three children as a single parent and do one of the most amazing jobs ever. She was in no way perfect, but she made no excuses, and she ran her household. I have raised children in two different families with help and not even come close to the standard she set in hers. Parenting is the hardest job ever because you are given the life of another human being, and the outcome is on you. I have been blessed with no handicap and failed my first time around at parenting. She is disabled and used that as a strength to raise her kids. I tip my hat to this feet one of the most significant accomplishments I have ever seen. I was blessed to attend Duke vs. St Johns at Madison square garden followed by a trip to the 40/40 Club in Manhattan. I could name the club scenes I was involved in while drinking but the reason I say this is because it was in sobriety and truly a wholesome spiritual experience. I am forever grateful for this because I knew it was a privilege to be there rather than the club of fakeness. My current state of mind is relaxed. I am at a time in my life where I am getting attention at a level I have never seen before, and it's for the right reasons. I am taking everything in stride and being very humble. I have no idea where life is about to take me, but it looks like it could be UNBELIEVABLE. The most overrated virtue in life is a success because that can be measured so many different ways. Everyone's level of success is different because everyone looks at the values of being different. The occasion I tend to lie to most is to older people. It is embedded in me always to respect your elders, and I know that parts of my life as many elders do not consider the right way to live. I love them too much to argue so I would rather lose the battle and win the war. I know in their heart they mean well, so I lie and continue to be successful to change the world. The person I despise the most is a crooked district attorney. They have someone’s freedom in their hands and to choose money or power over that makes me sick. I think they should be given life sentences because they do lifetime damage to a person and their family. quality I most like in a man is to be yourself. No matter what you bring to the table be the best version of yourself. Ignore society stigmas and live your life. The quality I most like in women is top notch hygiene. There is nothing more beautiful to me than a woman who values how clean she is and is always on top of that both physically and spiritually. I am an only child from a single parent mother. Two brains are better than one. I have come to realize that if those two brains are not on the same page, it's not better. It is not the quantity that matters it is the quality. I love the Lord the most because as many times as I turned my back on him he never gave up on me. I woke up in the hospital with a blood alcohol level of .04. The nurse said I should be in a coma or death and two years later my life is a fantasy turned reality. Others have done the same amount or less and died. For God to allow me to survive what I did and to make it to this level in life, it would be criminal to say I love ANYTHING more. The day my mother got out of rehab. I remember that being a day, she truly missed me and hugged me as so. I will never forget how she hugged me and how happy her face was. I knew then my mother loved me; a lot has happened since but I will take that moment to my grave. I wish I could hit a home run. My whole life I have always wanted to be able to hit a home run and have that feeling of running around the bases. I caught one but I was in the wrong park, and it haunts me to this day. That when it is time to be tough in a situation it does not haunt me. I hate when I have to have a confrontation, and even it goes the way I wanted it bothers me for a while. I have gotten better, but it is tough to do. Getting sober because my Mother told me, “Freddy by the way you are living I can die and finally sleep well.” Judge, because I want the power to help change the world case by case. In the south, because that life fits my soul.
0 Comments
|
FrederickI will use this blog to write about life. Archives
December 2018
CategoriesAll Identity Reflection Research Project Revision Scene We Forget |
Photo used under Creative Commons from South African Tourism